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  • Navigating My Kink Journey: Finding Authenticity

    Navigating My Kink Journey: Finding Authenticity

    Success comes from curiosity, concentration, perseverance and self-criticism. – Albert Einstein

    I have had many new experiences in the last 60 days, each of which could be its own blog entry.  I appeared in full formal leather uniform in public with Sir for the very first time in March!  I volunteered for a local Avatar leather club BDSM play party – which was my first time ever volunteering for a leather event or attending a public play party!  My Sir and I participated in a local community leather social get together to meet folks in our local community.  And, we attended CLAW 25 in Cleveland, where I saw a spectacular presentation on boxing which absolutely blew my mind (who knew there were others that shared a boxing/fight kink)! I even learned some new fast and quick rope tie bondage techniques which really piqued my bondage interests.

    And, you ask, how do I feel about all of this?  OVERWHELMED!

    Let’s start back at the beginning…. back in mid 2024, I joined a book club hosted by the Chicago Leather Archive & Museum, and I committed to reading and reviewing three books – Real Service by Raven Kaldera & Joshua Tenpenny, Protocols – A Variety of View: A Power Exchange Resource Book by Bob Rubel & L.C. Morgynn and The Deep Psychology of BDSM and Kink by Douglas Thomas.  What transpired after this new learning has been a rapid pace and aggressive growth journey that I still find myself on to this day.  From all of this new learning, I concluded that I need to be more authentic with myself and that I need to pursue my full identity by embracing leather.

    I have been kink-positive my entire adult life.  I’d pull out my kink identity just long enough to fulfill a need and then quickly retreat back to my socially acceptable buttoned-up adult self.  I think a lot of younger kinksters probably identify with this – it is what many of us do to maintain an interest in kink while keeping it neatly compartmentalized.  But, what characteristic traits are we shutting out by repeatedly denying ourselves the freedom of expression and an ability to live authentically?

    Flash forward to CLAW 25, and I had the pleasure to attend a talk titled, History and Legacy of Leather Clubs in the United States by Jake Woods and Dr. X-Ray.  Their presentation covered leather club history from 1885 to present.  This was a damn good presentation, and what stuck out for me was the repeating themes – the need for belonging, brotherhood and camaraderie.  140 years have passed, but little has changed as far as the same basic human needs – a sense of belonging and a need for self expression and camaraderie.

    The journey that I am on to find my leather self is presenting me with many complex challenges and emotions.  I have put a lot of pressure on myself to make this transformation real and to get results.  There is also a sense of urgency brought on by our ever changing politically charged world.  But, as much as I like to be in control of things – I am not in control of when or how this is going to happen.  During the leather club presentation at CLAW, Jake Woods asked the audience, “Where are you on your leather journey?” – and a giant light bulb went on in my head!  I am on this journey – I am seeking new learning – I am building new connections – I am in the struggle working hard at making change!

    So, what have I learned, you ask?  Sometimes you have to slow down to speed up.  I need to take more time to feel, to sense and to let these new experiences wash over.  As much as I want to control this journey – that’s just not the way this works.  This journey controls you.  You make yourself vulnerable enough and open enough – and the change happens.  Trust in the process 🙂

  • Achieving Fitness Goals: March 2025 Results

    Achieving Fitness Goals: March 2025 Results

    “You can, you should, and if you’re brave enough to start, you will.”

    Each month, boy s37 will report results based on the fitness goals that SIR Zuegi has approved for us. His boy will then present the results to SIR and get further instructions and any rewards or punishments for the outcomes delivered. Learn more about our Dom/sub fitness training dynamic and how these results are actioned on.

    boy s37 results –

    ORDER Name: Body Measures and Pics
    Due Date: 2025-03-31

    SIR’S COMMAND: This boy will submit for body image and measurement reporting on the first of each month. Body measures will be promptly recorded and reported to SIR with body measure changes trended over time.

    Measures Completion Details: SIR, YOUR boy is reporting the following measures details for the March 2025 training period SIR.

    Results Comparison: 

    Outcome Trends: < open trends >

    Order’s given by SIR for MAR:

    • Diet compliant at 85% or greater for all meals >> SIR, Your boy delivered a diet adherence of 88.6% for MAR and exceeded Your set target SIR. 65% of meals tracked in MAR compared to 88% in FEB – reduction due to travel disruptions.
    • Goal of stretching >> Your boy stretched 7 times in March, or for 33% of all completed workouts.

    Notable measure changes in MAR:

    • .2 lb increase in weight
    • .6% body fat increase
    • Small increase in waist and hip size
    • Small decreases in chest, shoulders and L/R calfs
    • # of workouts completed 21, consistent with February

    Challenges & Observations:

    • Very flat results for March. This boy is proposing an increase in the number of weekly pushups as well as improved cardio work in April. # of days on diet adherence also needs improvement.
    • Having more hip and knee pain than is normal, and looking to switch up strength training exercises in April to incorporate more calisthenics with less weight load (more reps, less weight). Planning to stick with stretching routines, and propose at or above 33% of workouts.
    • Would like to propose setting a target for cardio workouts completed with Sir for April to stay on target with His order.

    SIR, Your boy requests Your review of these results and awaits any further instructions or rewards/punishments for this boy’s results towards Your approved goals SIR.

    SIR’s instructions and rewards and/or punishments: 

    • Continue focus on stretching, at least once a week
    • Increase number of joint cardio/HIT workouts
    • Diet compliance of 85%

    Learn more about s37’s fitness journey on the jockboydiary.

    SIR Zuegi results –

    Results Comparison: 

    Outcome Trends: < open trends >

    Order’s given by SIR for MAR:

    • Cardio circuits for both of us to complete >> Your boy prepared these workouts, and we did these together a couple of times in March.

    Notable body measure changes in MAR:

    • Decrease in body weight by 1.1lb
    • .Decrease in body fat by .1%
    • Small increase in hip size
    • Small decrease in thigh and arms

    s37’s Observations for SIR:

    • Closer tracking of protein intake to ensure that Sir is getting growth results while cutting BF%.
    • More cardio/HIT workouts.

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    What do Y/you think about boy s37’s progress towards Sir Zeugi’s approved goals? Contact us or leave a comment.

  • Embracing BDSM: Navigating Dom/sub Dynamic Challenges

    Embracing BDSM: Navigating Dom/sub Dynamic Challenges

    The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be. – Deb Sofield

    My Dom and I are both kinky people, and we have been since the day we met. In fact, kink is what brought us together from the time we first cruised each other on recon. We each have a vast list of kinks we like, and thankfully, we share many in common. Our interests go well beyond our kinks, and as with most relationships, it requires change and focus to keep up with the changing times. Late last year, we started to embrace BDSM, and specifically the formation of a Dom/sub dynamic between us. While we enjoy leather, sports gear, and a myriad of other fetishes, we had not yet evolved into the arena of full power play dynamics and more pronounced roles as Dom and sub.

    Making that switch to a BDSM Dom/sub style relationship dynamic has been no small effort, and we continue to learn, experiment and discover ways to make this work for us.  I will share some of my greatest challenges with this as a sub, and reflect on the things I am doing to better myself and our relationship.

    Our situation is perhaps a little unique, because we are in a committed long-term relationship that is working to implement pronounced Dom/sub roles.  While we have always been into certain aspects of kink play, many of our relationship constructs were more ‘vanilla’ in nature. We do all the things couples like to do, like buying a house, arguing over paint colors, and getting groceries together. Super kinky right?!  No, in fact, there are a bunch of mundane normal “life” things that can be pretty boring, stressful and real kink killers. Discussing finances, worrying about a career, planning for healthcare – all real buzz killers. The day to day mechanics of commitment can be challenging at best and can test any relationship.

    Now add BDSM to that mix and things get real tricky. Part of that D/s dynamic is being true to your role, and for me that is a submissive leatherboy.  I’m a pretty short fused submissive with a decent amount of self confidence and a love of managing and controlling many things in my day to day life. Knowing how to be submissive and how to let go of having full control is a real challenge for me, because frankly, I am not entirely subservient in all ways.  At times, that has left me questioning my role – am I really a submissive if I can be so controlling?  Sexually, I’m a bottom, but that doesn’t directly imply total submissiveness. After many years of soul searching, I have concluded that yes, I am submissive, but with some real quirks. What truly motivates me is being controlled by outside influences, and one of those key influencers is my Dom. Deep down, I want to please, and I crave that feeling of doing and achieving for someone else.  

    Knowing you are a submissive and acting like one is two different things. We’ll be going through our day to day lives, with me wearing my collar as a symbol of Sir’s ownership and my commitment to Him, but I still veer off path. We’ll be doing housework or some other mundane task, and I will push back or be argumentative. Why?  Because I’m an opinionated human with faults, but this action almost always kills my submissive headspace and just makes me feel lost and disconnected.  So, why do I do it – why does it happen over and over?  It is habit and we humans tend to fall back to what we know regardless of how it makes us feel.  Even though it degrades my headspace and works against everything I am working hard to achieve, it happens over and over. And, it doesn’t just create challenges for me, it creates role challenges for my Dom. So, how does one resolve this?

    They say the first step is to fixing something is admitting you have a problem. So, here we are, step one – check.  The next step is putting effort into correcting the problem. A hallmark of BDSM and the D/s dynamic is behavior modification – or more specifically, behavior emulation of a desired role. I desire to be a better sub, one that is easier to live with, one that obeys, and one that works really hard to earn Sir’s trust and respect. To achieve that in a 24×7 dynamic, means respecting and honoring the little things – the really mundane stuff like making the bed, which Sir requires of His boy. It isn’t just the kinky-sexy stuff, but also the little day to day stuff.  It’s caring about the details and executing in a way that respects Sir’s wishes and demonstrates the utmost respect for Him and for my role.  It is respecting myself and working to achieve outcomes that make me feel good about who I am becoming – His leatherboy.

    They say it is the journey and not the destination, and in terms of BDSM, nothing could be more true. We aren’t born who we want to be – we become that image of who we want to be by emulating the behaviors that we most desire to posses. I desire to be less controlling, more caring, and a true leatherboy – mind, body and soul.

    There is no perfect solution to this challenge for me yet. So far, I have learned to observe and to communicate. Through these practices, I grow closer to my goal, and with time and energy, I believe our D/s dynamic will grow stronger.  I wouldn’t trade this growth opportunity and all of its challenges for anything in the world.

  • Achieving Fitness Goals: February 2025 Results

    Achieving Fitness Goals: February 2025 Results

    “A goal without a plan is just a wish.”

    Each month, boy s37 will report results based on the fitness goals that SIR Zuegi has approved for us. His boy will then present the results to SIR and get further instructions and any rewards or punishments for the outcomes delivered. Learn more about our Dom/sub fitness training dynamic and how these results are actioned on.

    boy s37 results –

    ORDER Name: Body Measures and Pics
    Due Date: 2025-02-28

    SIR’S COMMAND: This boy will submit for body image and measurement reporting on the first of each month. Body measures will be promptly recorded and reported to SIR with body measure changes trended over time.

    Measures Completion Details: SIR, YOUR boy is reporting the following measures details for the February 2025 training period SIR.

    Results Comparison: 

    Outcome Trends: < open trends >

    Order’s given by SIR for FEB:

    • For FEB-2025 You gave Your boy a target of maintaining diet compliant at 85% or greater for all meals >> SIR, Your boy delivered a diet adherence of 87.2% for FEB and exceeded Your set target SIR. 88% of meals tracked in FEB compared to 58% in January – demonstrating an improvement in diet compliance while traveling.
    • Improvement in the number of completed workouts >> 21 workouts completed in FEB compared to 18 in JAN – demonstrating an increase in the number of workouts while traveling.

    Notable measure changes in FEB:

    • .42″ increase in chest size (39.52″)
    • .38″ decrease in waist size (33.68″)
    • 1.1% decrease in calculated body fat percentage (15.9%)
    • Small increases in left and right thighs.

    Challenges & Observations:

    • Some fatigue in shoulders, triceps and elbow due to potential over training. Therefore, this jock boy is proposing scaling back pushups to 700-800 per week to allow for improved recovery. This will be achieved with greater tracking of total pushups each week.
    • Propose increasing stretching and basic yoga work to improve recovery and reduce stress.
    • This jock boy proposes changing up leg and arm exercises in MAR to promote greater lower body and arm growth.
    • This jock boy proposes improving endurance/cardio work, and would like to start boxing gym training in March. Goal is to identify a local boxing gym and evaluate by end of month.

    SIR, Your boy requests Your review of these results and awaits any further instructions or rewards/punishments for this boy’s results towards Your approved goals SIR.

    SIR’s instructions and rewards and/or punishments: 

    • I propose creating a cardio circuit for both of us to perform together once a week
    • boy will begin yoga and stretch training for help with recovery and injury.
    • Maintain 85% diet tracking for March.

    Learn more about s37’s fitness journey on the jockboydiary.

    SIR Zuegi results –

    Results Comparison: 

    Outcome Trends: < open trends >

    Order’s given by SIR for FEB:

    • My boy will create cardio workouts for me. >> This boy did not consistently follow through with this order, and will need to refocus on this area should SIR wish to continue with this going forward.

    Notable body measure changes in FEB:

    • Increase in thigh size: L – .52″ & R – .28″ (22.74″ & 22.86″)
    • .24″ increase in hip size (37.75″)
    • .76″ decrease in waist (36.71″)
    • 1.4% decrease in calculated body fat percent (23.7%)

    s37’s Observations for SIR:

    • Stay the course, but consider diversifying upper body exercises to promote growth.
    • Closer tracking of protein intake to ensure that Sir is getting growth results while cutting BF%.

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    What do Y/you think about boy s37’s progress towards Sir Zeugi’s approved goals? Contact us or leave a comment.

  • Mastering Diet Control: A Day in the Life of boy s37

    Mastering Diet Control: A Day in the Life of boy s37

    “Good habits are worth being fanatical about.” – John Irving

    I have had many ups and downs with my diet over the years.  I have spent much time in the gym lifting weights and putting in the work, all to drive slower than expected results due to poor diet control.  Everything you read about diet tends to be complex and difficult to maintain over time.  It can be hard to break it all down and figure out how to eat right to support growth.  And, what is right for one person might not work the same for someone else.  So, implementing diet control, for me, has been challenging to say the least.

    My Dom does not directly require diet control per His goals for me.  However, in order for me to achieve His approved goals, then I know I must eat in a way that will feed growth and support His desired outcomes.  Therefore, getting my diet right is critical for delivering results for Him.  

    Here, I will share a day in the life of boy s37 from a diet perspective, and how I think about diet and diet tracking.  I will then share how we use ‘diet control ’ as part of our D/s dynamic.  I will share some of my behind the scenes struggles with dieting, and some of the wants and desires I have related to diet control and submission.

    Right after I wake, I consume the first meal of the day – breakfast.  If it is a workout day I follow the workout day meal plan, otherwise I follow the non-workout plan which has fewer calories.  I use the master meal plan printouts I have posted up in the kitchen as a guide for the 2500 calorie per day meal plan.  This is a meal plan I have been using for quite some time, and when I follow it, I get good growth results.  Once this meal is consumed, I open my weekly health tracker and mark meal 1 as ‘HIT’ for the day. 

    At approximately 10am, I prepare and consume the second meal of the day.  Again, I follow the meal plan based on whether it is a workout or non-workout day.  Generally, this meal is a small to medium red potato, cottage cheese, nuts and a piece of fruit.  Once this meal is consumed, I open the health tracker and mark meal 2 as ‘HIT’ for the day.

    The 3rd and 4th meals of the day vary depending on whether it is a workout day or not.  If it is a workout day, I consume a pre-workout snack and protein as meal 3, and then I consume a spinach, protein, nuts and berry shake for meal 4.  If it is a non-workout day, I follow the meal plan as scripted for meals 3 and 4.  Once these are consumed, I update the health tracker for these meals.

    The 5th meal of the day is dinner and I follow the meal plan’s general guidance for this.  Once dinner is consumed, I update the health tracker for meal 5 as ‘HIT’.

    About an hour before bed, I prepare the 6th meal of the day.  This is a bedtime snack, and it is always greek yogurt with frozen berries.  This doesn’t exactly follow the diet guideline, but I enjoy this slight deviation and have been able to make it habitual.  Once this last meal of the day is consumed, I update the health tracker for meal 6 as ‘HIT’.

    Any meal throughout the day that doesn’t meet the diet guidelines is marked as ‘MISS’.  If a meal is missed entirely, then this automatically becomes a ‘MISS’.  For each day, I also track hydration.  If I generally stay hydrated, then I mark this as a ‘HIT’ for the day.  I also track alcohol consumption, and if I consume alcohol as more than just a dinner accompaniment, then this becomes a ‘MISS’ for the day.  I generally allow myself one to two glasses of wine with dinner, and I do not count this as a miss.

    So, with six meals per day plus alcohol and hydration, that makes 8 things to mark as either HIT or MISS each day.  So, in any given week, I am tracking 8*7=56 diet entries as ‘HIT’ or ‘MISS’.  Notice that I am not tracking calories and other macro nutrients.  This has greatly simplified my ability to track this and remain compliant.  Simplicity is the key to successful diet control.

    This diet plan has worked well for me, but there are a number of challenges.  I used to have a bad habit of missing meals 3 and 4 on workout days, because I just don’t have enough time to eat all those meals and workout.  Therefore, I tweaked workout days to combine meals 3 and 4.  The other complication is reporting honestly.  Say I go out for dinner, have a decent steak dinner, but eat fries with it.  Do I count this as a ‘HIT’ since it was mostly in line with my diet?  If I’m being honest with myself and with my Dom, then I count this as a MISS because those fries are not compliant with my meal plan.  My other issue is alcohol.  Alcohol makes me tired and dehydrated the next day, and I tend to miss diet meals after drinking.  I have learned that I must limit alcohol consumption in order to stay focused, positive, and making gains.

    The other issue is disruptions to the pattern of eating and tracking.  If I’m travelling for work or for leisure, then all hell breaks loose, and it is extremely hard to maintain diet.  If I know I’m not going to be able to remain compliant on certain days or for certain meals, then I mark them as ‘NA’ – not applicable – and I don’t track them.  I always confirm with Sir when I am marking days or meals as NA that way He is aware that His boy is intentionally skipping tracking.  Racking up a bunch of MISS’es when traveling can trigger a failure loop, and failure tends to beget more failure, so I avoid this situation whenever possible to remain positive and compliant.

    So, you’ve read this far, and maybe you are starting to wonder exactly how all of this is part of a Dom/sub dynamic?  Each month, I report to Sir the percentage of meals that met diet compliance.  You will find this information on my monthly measures trend, under ‘Monthly Diet Adherence’.  Sir then determines if my performance was inline with the expectations that He sets and communicates to me each month as part of our monthly check-in scene.  As an example, Sir has given His boy a goal of 85% for February 2025, and if I hit that target, then perhaps I will be rewarded.  If I miss it, then I may be punished for it.

    There are many things I fantasize about from a control perspective.  I enjoy being obedient and having this diet adherence goal to work towards and it really does help me focus.  I wish there were more day to day protocols that prevented me from breaking with the diet plan.  An example of this would be being required to ask Sir’s permission to ‘MISS’ any given meal target.  This would remind me that Sir ultimately controls the outcome so long as His boy remains structured and obedient.  We have only just begun to experiment with rewards and punishments for missing diet control targets.  To date, this boy has always hit the target that Sir sets, so this really is a powerful tool to help me stay on target.

    Thus far, I have seen growth on this plan.  The real control dynamic comes when I report growth targets to Sir that demonstrate that this diet is working towards the goals that He has approved.  So far this year I am cutting, seeing chest growth, and improvements in arm, shoulder and thigh size.  None of this happens fast, but the numbers are trending in the right direction, which means that my discipline and focus are driving towards Sir’s desired outcomes.

    You can see current diet compliance details for boy s37 on the jockboydiary blog – this is where he tracks health and fitness progress on a day to day basis.

    What are Y/your trials and tribulations with dieting and remaining consistent to support growth targets?  Have Y/you experimented with Dom/sub dynamics related to diet control?  If so, what have Y/you found that works well? What do Y/you fantasize about in terms of health and fitness control?

  • Achieving Fitness Goals: January 2025 Results

    Achieving Fitness Goals: January 2025 Results

    “Setting goals is the first step in turning the invisible into the visible.”

    We recently posted the blog entry Health & Fitness as a Dynamic, which further describes how we have incorporated BDSM into our health and fitness dynamic. Each month, boy s37 will post combined results based on the goals that Sir Zuegi has approved. The following are results reported for January 2025:

    boy s37 results –

    ORDER Name: Body Measures and Pics
    Due Date: 2025-01-31

    SIR’S COMMAND: This boy will submit for body image and measurement reporting on the first of each month. The boy will accurately report weight in pounds, and waist, hip, abdomen, chest, neck, shoulder, left/right thigh, left/right arm, and left/right calf circumference measures in inches, and the boy’s calculated body fat %. These body measures will be promptly recorded and reported to SIR with body measure changes trended over time.

    Measures Completion Details: SIR, YOUR boy is reporting the following measures details for the January 2025 training period SIR –

    Current and Last Month Measures Comparison: 

    Screenshot

    Measurement Trends: < open trends >

    Your boy’s general observations:

    Order’s given by SIR in DEC:

    • SIR, for JAN-2025 You gave Your boy a target of maintaining diet compliant at 85% or greater for all meals.  >> SIR, Your boy delivered a meal target of 91.61% for JAN and exceeded Your set target SIR. By comparison, Your boy improved diet compliance by 5.81% over DEC-2024 results SIR.
      • 9 days in January not diet tracked as a result of travel.
    • SIR, for JAN-2025 You asked for more chest focus to see a size increase.  >> Your boy added a dedicated chest-day workout day each week in addition to doing 100+ pushups on all other workout days.

    Workout consistency in JAN:

    • SIR, Your boy missed 0 scheduled workouts in JAN. 
    • SIR, Your boy delivered 18 workouts in JAN, the same as DEC.  This was lower than expected due to travel in JAN.
    • This boy had 13 rest days in January due to travel, which was higher than average.

    Notable body measure changes in JAN:

    • Increase in chest size by half an inch.
    • Increase in body-fat likely caused by number of days not on diet in January.

    Feedback & Challenges in JAN:

    • January was very challenging because too many days were not tracked with no workouts during travel periods.  I need to find better ways to sustain some diet and physical activity during travel, because it makes it very hard to regain momentum after disruption.
    • Would like to start incorporating the boxing gym in February – both in Chicago and at home.

    SIR, Your boy requests Your review of these results and awaits any further instructions or feedback regarding this boy’s performance against the goals You have set SIR.

    SIR’s Instructions & Feedback: 

    • Continue to maintain diet adherence of 85% or better for February.
    • Improvement in number of workouts completed for the month of February.

    Learn more about s37’s fitness journey on the jockboydiary.

    SIR Zuegi results –

    Current and Last Month Measures Comparison: 

    Screenshot

    Measurement Trends: < open trends >

    General measure observations:

    Order’s given by SIR for the month of JAN:

    • My boy will design two cardio workouts per week for me to complete.  These will be up to an hour in length and can be made up of a mix of HIT, boxing and other cardio type exercises. >> Not great progress on this.  Developed an initial set of workouts at the beginning of the month. Do You wish to proceed with these , and if so, at what interval?
    • Tracker for meals, 1, 3, 5 and 6 >> Diet tracking was implemented to assist with better meal prep/eating habits.

    Notable body measure changes in JAN:

    • Increase in chest size by half an inch.
    • Increases in thigh and calf size.
    • Increase in body-fat %.
    • 77% diet adherence in January.

    Recommendations for FEB:

    • Recommend increasing cardio in order to balance calories with muscle gain.
    • Improved diet adherence with greater consistency across meals.

    Orders Given:

    • Continue to create cardio workouts.

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    Interested to learn more or have questions? Please contact us or leave a comment.